Today has been the toughest day so far after we heard mom was diagnosed with cancer. My aunt and uncle had an appointment with my mom's doctor and I got the news I was so afraid to hear. My mom will never ever get better and with a bit of luck she might live for a couple of years but we don't know for how long. Not many years, the doctor said.
I'm only nineteen years old, my younger sister is fifteen, we're both too young for this. Everything is spinning in my head, thoughts flashing back and forth. It feels like time is going too fast and slowing down at the same time. More then ever now do I realize what she means to me. I must be honest that the last couple of years I couldn't really be around my mom, last summer I hated her for leaving our family but I take it back. Everything, I take it all back. This is my scream for help, from anywhere, someone, please help. I've lost control over everything. Life is taking me to places I never wanted to be. My body feels like a black hole at this moment, how can I be happy again? How do I get through this? How?
Maybe she'll never see my kids. Maybe she'll never see me marry the man I love. Who will I turn to at 3am when I feel down and lost, when I need comfort? Where do I turn to? This can't be real, please tell me this isn't reality and that everything is just a bad dream. I beg you.
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